I make it back to the dorm room. I get to the elevator and a bunch of girls is getting on with me. They start laughing at me and I collapse in the corner of the elevator. I said “Please! Please just push 4 for me.” I manage to get out on the 4th floor and run for my room. My room is, of course, all the way at the end of the hallway. The next to the last room located by the one-way fire door which leads to the stairs. I’m praying that Brian is there and the door is open. The door handle turns and I literally fall into the room.
Brian is on the phone, as I fall in front of him he says “He’s here call me back” and hangs up the phone. Brian takes one look at me and grabs the comforter off his bed and wraps it around me as my skin is bright red and I am shaking violently from the cold. He gets off my underwear and puts my bathrobe on my shoulders and walks me to the showers. He puts me in the shower and turns the hot water on. I can see the steam rising from the hot water but I cannot feel anything on my skin. “DON’T F*CKING MOVE FROM THAT STALL” he yells at me, and he leaves.
I must have stood in that shower for hours until finally, I got some feeling back in my skin and my fingers were getting puny. I am still in some sort of shock as I put my robe on and try and head for my room. When I get to my door I hear arguing going on inside. I hear Brian yelling “WHAT THE F*CK DID YOU DO TO HIM” and then I hear Mr. Green’s voice answer “THAT’S NONE OF YOU BUSINESS” and I open the door and see Brian, Mr. Green, Adolph, and a few other guys all in my room, and I just blackout.
I wake up and I am in my bunk bed, I look over the side and Brian is at the door talking to Mr. Green, he sees me and yells at me to “Go back to sleep! This is all a bad dream“, he then says a more few words to Mr. Green and closes the door. I am still looking at him and he yells again “I SAID GO BACK TO F*CKING SLEEP! THIS IS ALL A BAD DREAM!” I fall asleep and wake up the next morning having had a horrific nightmare. But I can hardly move as I have a very bad cold. Flu-like symptoms but by that night they were gone again and I felt fine.
Back in the dorm
Meanwhile, what is happening back in the dorm room and during school while all this is going on? I remember strange things happening in my normal life during school. My high school sweetheart “Dawn” had gone to a different college so I was not that interested in meeting different girls anyway as I was loyal to her and her alone. But all the girls, as well as most of the people I knew, though I was the biggest ass-hole because I didn’t talk much to anyone. During classes, in the hallways, at parties or anywhere. The only people I had spoken to were the football players and the coaches.
This was my “world” as far as walking to and from classes I always had my Walkman on. People made jokes that they thought it was “glued” to my head. On the football team, I earned a starting spot on the best team Rochester had had in their 100 years of having a football team. As suddenly as I had earned the starting spot, the next week the coaches told me that I was no longer going to be the starter and I was benched. I go in as to ask why, and then my coach, coach Marz tells me that there are “other forces at work” and he has this glazed look in his eyes like he wants to tell me something but he cannot. Looking back I think they wanted to keep me as quite as possible. In other words, the last thing they wanted me to do is to go off and be a great football star, with newspapers and the media.
So I think they went to the coaches and told them not to play me, to bench me because they could not take the chance of my face getting on the news. During parents weekend freshmen year my father came up for the event. During one of the evenings, the school had hired a “Stage Hypnotist” for a show after dinner. In the main cafeteria, they had set up chairs probably over to 2000 seats. The hypnotist asks for volunteers to be in the show and he starts picking people out of the audience to come up and be hypnotized. I am waving my hand like crazy and the guy picks some people who are right near me and passes me by. I say “fuck this I’m going up there anyway” because I really wanted to do this for some reason.